I should prove to bruce & everyone that my strategy is "right" or that I am "right".

when I recall and hear rantings about money and adulthood that I think to myself they are cynical and closed-minded. I feel very tempted to either avoid people with those thoughts entirely or start yelling at them or saying passive aggressive statements to them.
I feel angry and pessimistic because I am needing the self-empowerment and encouragement I once
had observing different inspiring characters. Therefore I'd like to try to plan to experiment through
trial & error w/ different strategies to see if I can

I should have been more asseritve or just left.
I should have known how to communicate differently
I shouldn't have not gone to bartending school for those 2 weeks in the first place.
I shouldn't have ranted to leanna to the degree that I did.

what needs were not met by the choice you made?

emotional safety
 support
accountability
companionship
contribution to others
self-respect-respect for others
autonomy

what needs were you attempting to meet by the choice you made not to finish and to argue with
them in a passive aggressive way?
protection, safety, emotional security, authenticity control, order, nurturing, self-empowerment,
autonomy, self-worth
When I recall the way I responded to the statements lorraine, and my family made to me.
I feel angry, insecure, bitter, disgusted, guilty, and disappointment
because my needs for respect and to be heard and understood and to understand others and compassion
were not met.
would I be willing to

regrets
 I should have spent more time practicing wrestling/weight lifting
I should have taken more advantage of opportunities to talk to guys ie added mike figeroa
on facebook.

what needs were not met by this choice


acceptance
harmony
intimacy
communication
warmth
self-worth
autonomy


what are your ofnr in the present moment.

When I recall...instead of talking more to these guys, I feel depressed and dissapointed. I need to be accepted (by guys in particular) and connected.
would I be willing to at least try to spend a little more time studying guy interests that way I might be more likely to be successful in a future opportunity?

what needs are you trying to meet when you tell your ex-therapist no no relationships only art est est.

emotional safety, peace, respect, self-respect, control, order, certainty.
would I be willing to at least consider trying to try to experiment w/ other ways to meet these needs other than the strategy I've chosen?